Look both ways...

2007 didn't go out with a bang. I was in bed by 8:30 with a massive migraine. Husband came to bed about midnight, while fireworks went off we exchanged sleepy "happy new year"s, kissed and went back to snoozing. We are an exciting pair I tell you.

2007 had its up and downs I suppose. For your viewing pleasure I offer the highlights in bulleted format.

• 2007 lead me through 3 different jobs and countless interviews that went nowhere.
  
• Eventually though I finally can say I'm in a career I enjoy.
  
• I discovered organic living and became a hippie I suppose.
• Husband had a mini-health crisis.
• I rediscovered Buddhism.
• I gave up on scrap booking because of lack of time.
  
• I found out that life without DVR service is nearly unbearable.
  
• I got a Wii and realized just how out of shape I really am.
• Husband and I debated the question of children... never really coming to a conclusion.
  
• I think I developed adult ADD.
• My dad gave me his Cannon EOS 1 35MM camera and I discovered that my dogs should be models. Or I should be a dog photographer... lol
• I finally used my slow cooker, 2 years later... *cough*
• I realized that I can no longer handle horror movies. Too bloody. Yuck.

In this new year there are few things I hope to accomplish. I won't call them resolutions because there's a sense of defeat in that term. These aren't things I *have* to change but rather things I would *like* to change. I'm not perfect, I realize that, but right now it's more important to love myself (as is). Red's blog a few days ago (letter to my body) made me realize something profound. Something intense and something very profound, it's personal though.

I hope above all us that this will be the year for profound change. I hope this year will provide positive outcomes instead of bitter disappointment. I hope this year will help both Husband and I bridge the gap from young adults to adults without much turbulence. I hope this year makes all of the previous years worthwhile. It's going to be good though. I can feel it. I'm staying positive Li. Promise.

Searching...

This is a topic I've gone out of my way to avoid blogging about until now. However, here goes.

I am not a Christian. I am not an atheist. I am me.

I have always been indifferent to religion. It existed and because of various friends I dabbled in it. I will say I never felt "it". That thing you're supposed to feel when you go to church. When prayers would be said I would close my eyes and daydream. My mind wandered as the preacher paced red-faced in front of me. I couldn't pay attention. I tried reading the bible on several occasions but found myself bored. I desperately wanted to fit in and be a "Christian" but I just never could.

Then I grew a bit older and made opinions about things. I found that the things I believed in weren't exactly kosher with most religions.

Then I grew a bit older and saw the terrible things that were done in the name of religion.

Today I would call myself a budding Buddhist. Not because it's hip or trendy but because I feel like Buddha is a kindred spirit. I am never more at peace with myself and the world then when I am meditating (reference my zen moment blog).

I don't want a faith or spirituality that is based on the fear of going to hell.

And to be frank I've always had a bit of a problem with an omnipotent being watching us all be horrible and nasty to each other without doing anything about it. Yes I know what omnipotent means and yes I know what the theory is about free will. (I have had far too many discussions with believers not to know my history) It just always bothered me.

I think when it comes right down to it we're all searching for the same thing. Just because we search for it in different ways doesn't mean that we're all so different we can't peacefully co-exist. I would love to have more friends for a variety of religions because I find spirituality/religion to be fascinating.

And that's my two-cents.