Missing...

Ellie
(or Smelly as she was affectionately referred to)
Loved from June 27th 2007 - March 24th 2009

Time heals all wounds:
At least now I can look at photos of her without being reduced to a sobbing pile of Karen. (yes that was *supposed* to be funny.)
At least now I feel a little less guilty.
At least now I know in my heart that I gave her the best life possible for the time we had together.

I kept picturing her in my head.
The way she used to peek her head around the corner of the house when you'd call for her.
The way her whole body would shake with joy when she saw you.
The way she'd cock her head to the side when you talked to her.
The way she'd scratch her back on the patio.
The way she'd bark and growl while scratching her back on the patio.
The way she'd wake herself up from farting.
The way she played with her toys with the abandonment of a puppy.

Husband was working night shift the week leading up to and the week that we lost her. I was a total mess. I would call him at work sobbing into the phone about what a horrible owner I was. I couldn't sleep because every time I closed my eyes I saw her face and couldn't seem to convince myself that we'd done the right thing...

Her hips had been bad since the day we took her in off the streets. I thought she was just having another one of her "bad" days... Then one day she laid down and wouldn't get up. I tried pumping her full of supplements... Then one day she refused to eat. That's when I knew... Even though I knew in my heart that we were doing the right thing... It hurt. It still does.

Before Ellie I was afraid of Rottweilers.

I miss her terribly.
I imagine I always will.

I miss you...

I miss the days when you were my hero...
I can only hope that someday things will be different.

You don't miss it...

There are things you take for granted in life. Things you don't know how much you need until they are gone. For instance a sewage pump.

Our sewage pump died Monday. This means showering in 3 inches of soapy water, when it's appropriate to shower for the time limit of 5 minutes. Flushing the toilet only when absolutely necessary. Selective hand washing. One load of laundry a day. Most importantly though it means I have a swamp for a backyard.

Never fear though! We bought an extended warranty on it back in 2006 for 8 years! Or so we thought. After numerous hours on hold with Home Depots warranty people they are now telling us we bought the extended warranty for a water heater.... We didn't even buy a water heater on that receipt. And yes, Husband has faxed them a copy of said receipt several times. So I've been without a sewage pump for 4 days now. And worst of all it doesn't appear to be getting resolved anytime in the near future.

Home Depot... you... f-ing... suck!

There is a small bright side to all of this though... Husband has gotten very creative with how to help it drain in the meantime. Let me just say it has involved everything from an old Soft Pool water pump to a shop vac. Gotta love him.

But Home Depot... I still hate you.